Everybody but me.
This October for the first time in my life, I am headed south of the Equator to volunteer teach. This upcoming trip has been by far the boldest step in my comfortably sheltered life.
When people hear of my trip there is a look about them and ‘yes’ I answer them , ‘yes, there are a million other things one can do in Africa than spend the entire time teaching kids’. But how can I make them understand that this is something I feel destined to do; something I have always wanted to do.
With every day that brings the journey closer, a storm is brewing within me. I am petrified. What if I get lost? What if I fall dangerously ill? What if out of the million things that could go wrong a hundred do go wrong?
I even have voices in my head letting me know that it is not too late to pull out of this.
Through all the turmoil E. E Cummings reminds me that it takes courage to grow up and become who I truly am. I may not change the world while I am there. But I may touch a little soul, mend a broken toy, wipe a tear from sad eyes, be the reason for another’s smile.
I may never change the world while I am on it, but that does not mean I am not going to try.